Castiel merely nods. He doesn't move again until Sam has left, the door clicking shut behind him. Though it remains unlocked, the sound is terrifying.
He's been locked in the bathroom before. In the basement, too. In the cupcoard, once or twice. When he failed to learn properly. Jason was always fair in that he made sure to punish all transgressions, and Castiel always supposed he just hadn't gotten good enough to earn rewards yet.
He's not so sure about that anymore. He's not so sure about anything anymore.
So Castiel takes his time, trying to quell the rising panic. Sometimes he treads towards the door, presses his ear to it. Waits until he hears Sam shifting outside, or clearing his throat, or talking in low voices with Dean or Kevin.
It would be comforting if he didn't remember being locked up in the bathroom, too cold water uncomfortably filling him and causing cramps, Jason banging on the door to get his attention and make sure his boy would be as clean as he wanted him to be.
Castiel asked never to do that again, earning him three days tied to the cot in the basement, spreader bar holding him open for use, but unable to do anything but lie there and wait for something to happen.
Jason petted his hair afterwards, and said Cas was so close to doing well, so close to making Jason proud.
Castiel leaves the bathroom half an hour after Sam left him to his own devices. "I#m ready now," he says. And wonders if that almost makes Sam proud, too.
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He's been locked in the bathroom before. In the basement, too. In the cupcoard, once or twice. When he failed to learn properly. Jason was always fair in that he made sure to punish all transgressions, and Castiel always supposed he just hadn't gotten good enough to earn rewards yet.
He's not so sure about that anymore. He's not so sure about anything anymore.
So Castiel takes his time, trying to quell the rising panic. Sometimes he treads towards the door, presses his ear to it. Waits until he hears Sam shifting outside, or clearing his throat, or talking in low voices with Dean or Kevin.
It would be comforting if he didn't remember being locked up in the bathroom, too cold water uncomfortably filling him and causing cramps, Jason banging on the door to get his attention and make sure his boy would be as clean as he wanted him to be.
Castiel asked never to do that again, earning him three days tied to the cot in the basement, spreader bar holding him open for use, but unable to do anything but lie there and wait for something to happen.
Jason petted his hair afterwards, and said Cas was so close to doing well, so close to making Jason proud.
Castiel leaves the bathroom half an hour after Sam left him to his own devices. "I#m ready now," he says. And wonders if that almost makes Sam proud, too.